what am i

what am i but a piece of flesh.
another one, just another one.
i have never felt this kind of profound numbness, without any sort of medication.
i let it take me away, my whole self away.
just for a moment
for a second only to feel that numb,
like an opiate.
i became a doll.
one anyone can pull apart, grasp, breathe in, contemplate.
here for the taking.
here for the moment,
for your convenience.
for a rush.
so i let myself go,
out of my mind, out of my whole self.
to be enjoyed, torn, and forgotten the next day.
im just there, just because. because i don't care.
because i don't feel.
because i forgot.